Words… Thoughts… Feelings
Words escape me,
They surround me,
yet they hound me,
I read them,
I write them,
I live them,
I love them,
I hate them,
I make them…
The words are too much right now,
They blind me with a passion.
Thoughts chase me,
They trace my memories,
Lace my life with Milestones,
Embrace my day with moments.
The Thoughts invade my head,
i would rather some peace instead.
They are there at night when i lay my head down to sleep,
they rush around when my day is ready to start.
Once upon a time in a book i could get lost,
it feels like a lifetime ago that i wandered around with a character i didn’t know.
Feelings of failure,
Feelings of Nurture,
Having to be the strong one,
Always being wrong one.
The feelings hurt to the touch,
they burn a hole in my heart.
Planning for something that may never eventuate,
creating a dream that makes me smile,
dreaming of a life where i can turn down that dial,
Behind the Lens i feel a safety net,
i see things in a new light,
the bright pop of flowers,
the smile of a now teenager,
the sparkle in my husbands eye.
I steal little moments of wonder,
I take each day as a new blessing,
as a gift…
A gift of new
© Nicole Beltane January 11 2015